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It's been a while

But I am a very stressy- beast this morning and it's keeping be from sleeping which happens to rile me up even more.   I had another incident with the same cast member that I did 2 months ago.  And I know that I am probably going to be reviewed for this as if I provoked him, but I didn't and I know that there is enough evidence pointing otherwise back to him for as to what actually took place.    I'm hoping that the managers see that and realize that this CM is going about this as a revenge tactic toward me for the initial incident.  

Dear Lord help me through this today.  Give your peace and solitude for standing my ground and doing the right thing.  I ask for your mercy and grace.

Sincerely yours.

Waking up Irritated

I am so upset at the run around I keep getting from my managers about how my schedule is being worked out from week-to-week.

Now instead of getting my usual 5 lead shifts that I have gotten for the past four years I find myself ( well for the past 6-8 months) of only picking up 4 and on occasion 3 which is putting me in a place with my regular scheduler where I am picking up front of house shifts that apparently per Andrea, Ryan and Kelly I cannot get around. And now I'm being told that my seniority in the company doesn't mean anything and that lesser senioritied cast members can in fact pick up my back of house shifts and that's BS.

I'm really hoping that Jeanette can get down to the bottom of all of this as I was told from her that the info they're giving me is wrong.

And furthermore I think my scheduler is purposely doing it now that I have inquired about it on several occasions.

I am also keeping a record of who's getting these shifts.

I am just hoping that Jeanette can somehow get down to the bottom of all of this.

Untitled

I don't even know what to use as a title for this post.

Well as some of you know if you've been on FB recently is that Marc, my husband took a spill yesterday while riding his skateboard. At first I was mad... Okay maybe a little livid knowing that for the next few weeks he's probably going to be kicking back at home with disability checks coming ( which hasn't been decided either way at this point) or back to work with " light duties". He's currently diagnosed with a broken clavicle that will take 6 weeks to heal.

no where to go with that point other than I'm speechless but trying to make it through the second day of this ordeal.

Yesterday during bible study the pastor's wife Debi brought up a good point - Tht The Lord is Sovereign over all things that go on in my life. And that he will allow these things to take place for His glory and will to be done. Now I already know these things but I needed to be reminded of them yesterday when I was still stewing over the fact that we had to spend the last bit of our savings on our 20-yr-old truck to fix the ABS system. But after the kindly reminder that God cares about every little thing in my life and discussing it in detail with the ladies in my group. Hearing their living situations and how hard and difficult it can sometimes be for them but knowing The Lord is faithful to meet their needs I drove home a happy, somewhat more joyful woman... Until I found my husband on the couch with an ice pack on his shoulder and in unbearable pain.

And I just cringed. And got angry and yeah, harbored that unbelief all over again.

But this morning I woke up and reminded myself of how The Lord spoke to me yesterday on the way home after study when He told me that He would never give me more than I can handle without giving me a way out. So after the loss of a savings, and now this ... I have to believe that it's going to be that God is goi g to come shining through some way - some how.

Bummed

Am I allowed to be bummed as a Christian? I think so. It might not be what and how God would want us to react to let downs as he is in control of all things that pertain to our lives. He doesn't want us to worry or stress but sometimes we can't help it, right? I mean we are human after all.

So we of course have been saving a little bit of what is left over from our taxes- but today we found out that the trucks ABS system is going out. Case in point- I was taking the kids to school, went over a bump in the road and couldn't stop the car. Thankfully we didn't rear end the person in front of us. So I drove it to the shop and voila it is what it is. And as for that savings? That is partially gone and the remaining is going on my credit card which I am truly not happy about but am stuck with no other option.

I just feel that we can never get ahead. An I know that this is not the attitude that God wants me to have. But it is what it is. Maybe tomorrow morning I'll be feeling better. But as for tonight I'm not.

Heart Condition

So since Saturday when I checked my schedule for next week I have been filled with anger, frustration and every evil thought, well. Maybe not EVERY thought, but I have been harboring the worst attitude that ice had in quite some time at work.    normally I would blog about it to get it off my chest and leave it in Gods hands, but cub is not the case with this issue.   This issue has been going on now since September  and I thought that I had taken care oft with Kelly back in November when she started scheduling me according to my preferences and not hers.    Since being a full time cast member with seniority, I have certain rights,one of them is to have first dibs on the hours for labor, and not last choice.     According to union contract she to honor  that whether or not she likes toor not.    So for the month of  December I had runner shifts, and that was the only month I had them consistently.   For the past  two months I have had  cashier positions to make up my 30 hours after my lead shifts.    So yesterday I finally got enough courage up to call our union rep to talk with him about this.   I was thankful that he called me back with advice ASAP.  

But instead of leaving this in Gods hands I still find myself irked.     I have never had any issues with my schedule for the past 7 years I have been a cast member.   But I believe there is more going on with all this.   I believe she might be taking bribes from other cast members so that they can be scheduled into my shifts.   And if that's what's going on both the CM's could be fired, and I also think she's purposely singling me out because I have questioned her in the past about me schedule.

What I need to do is wholeheartedly give this to God so that I am not carrying around all this strife, anger and pent up rage  at home and at work.

I need to have peace and comfort and know that I have done what needs to be done.   I need to follow through with the advice my Rep gave me and leave the rest in Gods hands.   So that is my prayer for today.

Finally Off.

Going to the truck to watch Dawson's Creek until Marc is off of work.