I hate that women are so vain at times.

Of course, when I was younger I was the same way.

Hopefully today will shape up to be better.

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
 ~ Winston Churchill

Irritated with life

I bet if I had called on the name of the Lord just once yesterday afternoon or evening after I had gotten to work, my burden of irritation would have been lifted immediately.  Did I do this? Nope. Just dug in my heels and let the aggravation of everything at work really take root in my  heart.   I just can't seem to let it go. The anger and resentment of how people are and how really low some are.  Just drives me nuts!  

Whenever I do manage to realize that it's not my problem, and that this belongs to the Lord.   Then and there only do I stop and pray or give up out of pure exhaustion.    Am I angry and upset about the lies that someone is telling about me at work to a manager of all people?  Yes, yes I am.  But getting angry and upset over something I know in my heart most likely isn't true isn't something I should be concentrating on all night long.  And I know, as surely as I am sitting here in this comfy chair and writing this out, that the Lord has me in the palm of His mighty hand and that every little whim of anger that I have will be dealt with by Him.  You see, nothing everything that touches my life goes through His hands first.  But not only that, He's the one person I have in my corner ALL THE TIME.     God will have his day.  And it might not be settled the evening, and it might not be taken care of by the end of this week. But it will be taken care of.   I should have no worries and no burdens.  And I think its when we do that Satan is having his field days with our minds.    I know every day when I wake up who the Mighty God is that I love with all my heart.  I might not be the best Christian around, and I might not be the biggest sinless person, but I try and I've been trying more lately.    This lesson this time around is not to be "involved" and not to be like they are, spreading gossip.  I really need to learn to shut my mouth and not say anything.   I didn't all day long yesterday, in fact.  It felt good not to be "one of them" for a day. To leave them guessing as to what is going on.   But in fact, I didn't feel spiritually well at all yesterday, and for today I desire something better.  So the advice today is.  If you have a problem go talk to a manager.  Because truth be told, I am no better than they are when things start going awry.

Want some cheese with all that whine?

I know I shouldn't even harbor such thoughts, but truly my sister-in-law bugs the living poop out of me. All I want to say is " shut up and stop babbling about everything under the sun." it's like she has the right answer for everything. ENOUGH! Go away, Get a life! She is like a gnat that won't stop buzzing around, and I need the swatter.

I try to be nice. I try to keep my peace, but I just don't find her interesting in the least bit.

Another thing that's bothering me is why should we give her a present for Christmas? Does she give us one, or give Marc one back? No she doesn't . I feel like saying to her " buy your own darn books, you have money.". Books are an expense that I don't even buy because I can barely afford them myself. But Sissy-La-La wants books, and not just any book, but books from across the globe so that you have to spend a small fortune to get them here

I can't even explain how irritated I
am. I'm not made out of money. We are struggling this Christmas just like the next person. Take your Christmas "Wish List" and stick it where the sun doesn't shine.

Zip Land

Tired and hopefully I can sleep

Not too bad

I kept from saying too much tonight trying to be a better example not only to my shadow but others around me. I still missed westside though, and I am pretty sure I still want to continue to pick up shifts over there just to shake things up a bit so my schedule doesn't become so mundane.

Glad that I spoke to Jeanette, it feels as if a weight has been lifted off of me just knowing she is going to take care of it.