Hopefully today will shape up to be better.

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
 ~ Winston Churchill

Irritated with life

I bet if I had called on the name of the Lord just once yesterday afternoon or evening after I had gotten to work, my burden of irritation would have been lifted immediately.  Did I do this? Nope. Just dug in my heels and let the aggravation of everything at work really take root in my  heart.   I just can't seem to let it go. The anger and resentment of how people are and how really low some are.  Just drives me nuts!  

Whenever I do manage to realize that it's not my problem, and that this belongs to the Lord.   Then and there only do I stop and pray or give up out of pure exhaustion.    Am I angry and upset about the lies that someone is telling about me at work to a manager of all people?  Yes, yes I am.  But getting angry and upset over something I know in my heart most likely isn't true isn't something I should be concentrating on all night long.  And I know, as surely as I am sitting here in this comfy chair and writing this out, that the Lord has me in the palm of His mighty hand and that every little whim of anger that I have will be dealt with by Him.  You see, nothing everything that touches my life goes through His hands first.  But not only that, He's the one person I have in my corner ALL THE TIME.     God will have his day.  And it might not be settled the evening, and it might not be taken care of by the end of this week. But it will be taken care of.   I should have no worries and no burdens.  And I think its when we do that Satan is having his field days with our minds.    I know every day when I wake up who the Mighty God is that I love with all my heart.  I might not be the best Christian around, and I might not be the biggest sinless person, but I try and I've been trying more lately.    This lesson this time around is not to be "involved" and not to be like they are, spreading gossip.  I really need to learn to shut my mouth and not say anything.   I didn't all day long yesterday, in fact.  It felt good not to be "one of them" for a day. To leave them guessing as to what is going on.   But in fact, I didn't feel spiritually well at all yesterday, and for today I desire something better.  So the advice today is.  If you have a problem go talk to a manager.  Because truth be told, I am no better than they are when things start going awry.

Want some cheese with all that whine?

I know I shouldn't even harbor such thoughts, but truly my sister-in-law bugs the living poop out of me. All I want to say is " shut up and stop babbling about everything under the sun." it's like she has the right answer for everything. ENOUGH! Go away, Get a life! She is like a gnat that won't stop buzzing around, and I need the swatter.

I try to be nice. I try to keep my peace, but I just don't find her interesting in the least bit.

Another thing that's bothering me is why should we give her a present for Christmas? Does she give us one, or give Marc one back? No she doesn't . I feel like saying to her " buy your own darn books, you have money.". Books are an expense that I don't even buy because I can barely afford them myself. But Sissy-La-La wants books, and not just any book, but books from across the globe so that you have to spend a small fortune to get them here

I can't even explain how irritated I
am. I'm not made out of money. We are struggling this Christmas just like the next person. Take your Christmas "Wish List" and stick it where the sun doesn't shine.

Zip Land

Tired and hopefully I can sleep

Not too bad

I kept from saying too much tonight trying to be a better example not only to my shadow but others around me. I still missed westside though, and I am pretty sure I still want to continue to pick up shifts over there just to shake things up a bit so my schedule doesn't become so mundane.

Glad that I spoke to Jeanette, it feels as if a weight has been lifted off of me just knowing she is going to take care of it.

Good night world

Had a very nice day, really wish I could do it over again from start to finish. Most definitely NOT looking forward to working the next 6 straight days, or rather nights at work before Thanksgiving but since it only happens once in a blue moon that I do, I guess I can muster up the strength to get through it if need be. Maybe I can take an extra day off afterwards just to relax before it starts getting really crazy at work again.

the last few weeks

have been full of busy days and a lot of hustle and bustle to and fro.  Thankfully the kids are out of school now, and that is one less stress we have to worry about on our days off.   I have been sleep deprived the last few days (nights) which gave way to getting a good nights rest of five hours last night.  And it's been a lot of changes at work.    

Im not fine, at least not today

Just feeling a little "under the weather" spiritually.     Almost six years ago now I fell away from the Lord, and at the time  I knew it was going to happen, and I knew also that I would be at some appointed time in the future, would be back to serve God.   I was fed up with always doing the right thing, and everything always going the wrong way.   And so I blocked out God, and started following my own path, in my own rebellious way, I did things I ultimately shouldn't have done and I didn't care.   I needed a break, and I needed to find my way on my own with my children who have always been the biggest blessing in my life.  God knows what I did- And He also knows how I felt, how I feel now, and I believe He has forgiven me.   I believe that through the journey I have been on in the past five years, He has always been there for me.  I don't believe He once forgot about me.  He might have turned his face away from me, probably more than once, but He never left me, nor forsook me in all the time I wasn't doing what I was supposed to do.  

I committed adultery, lived with another man until I was divorced.     Yes, I committed the ultimate of sins, but I never stopped loving God, and I never fully walked away from Him either and denounced Him as the God who He is.    Was I right in what I did?  No.   But I felt it was needful to do for myself and my children.

Here I am all over now on a different path, in a different time, but still in this lifetime and still trying to do my best to do what God wants me to do.    But it's a daily struggle to just "do" the right things.    Im not so rebellious anymore.  I have reaped what I've sown and will probably continue to do so until the day I leave this earth.   But I know that I am forgiven and that I am saved no matter what others say, no matter what churches say.  I know my God has forgiven me.  



I guess my whole idea for feeling spiritually dry is that the world around us has changed.  More or less in the past year, than in the last five that I have been a rebellious child.   I wonder how I will fare in the future when the world will be in a Spiritual battle even more so.    The world is changing but people don't see it.   God is calling out to us all, but we're just going on in our busy, daily lives  ignoring the fact that religion isn't as tolerated as it once was, there are disasters happening all over the world, the middle east is a mess.   There's just too much crap going on, and no one is paying attention to it.   Except  me.  And Im sure I'm not the only one.   Anyone that has a spiritual pull is feeling the birthing pangs.  Every day is just a struggle to get through, because the world is getting more and more heavy a burden.  The taxes are rising, the food is going up, the gas is still high, the economy is still the same or worse as it was two years ago when it collapsed.  There are still billions of people without jobs standing out on the street corners begging for money.  The natural disasters are compiling at an alarming rate.   This is stated somewhere other than me just imagining it all.   In the book of Revelation.   The book describes all this and more, and puts an urgency in the heart of the elect to be ready.  Ready to go when Jesus comes again.


So what are we to do in this day and age?  We are to pray and set our hearts on the right track to follow instead of ignore the messages that are being displayed before us.

It hasn't quite been a week since I made the last post about being "tired" but it still is a true statement.   I have no idea of why I am, really.   I had some early days to work, and got plenty of sleep, but still am feeling exhausted as I sit here and ponder as to why I truly am.   And my body aches, which shouldn't be anything new, but I am really wiped out.  Maybe I should just get some more sleep before picking up Marc tonight from work.

Really tired and worn out and in need of refreshment.

I am so worn out right now.  It has been very warm (hot) the past couple of days, and all it takes is a bit of that anymore to totally make me want to fall over by the time the sun goes down.    I did a lot of cleaning today, something I don't usually do a lot of, because I am so wiped out from working, and getting home late for nights on end, that I just am plain lazy.   Which I know is horrible, but I lack pep and motivation to do anything that requires me to run around without stopping.   After getting the morning shopping and errand running done, we got home around 11:00 and I just plopped down for a few minutes.    But then got tired just sitting here computing, and decided I didn't want to let the whole entire day go by (again) without getting anything done.   So I took the clothes out of the washer and hung them to dry, I did a small load of dishes, filled the sink with cleaner and actually got around to washing both my kitchen floor and bathroom also, washed down cabinets, counters and refrigerator of dirty fingerprints, re-organized some of the stuff on my kitchen counter.  After picking up the kids from school I laid down for a half hour, ready Streams in the Desert, and lap-topped for a bit.  Then got up went outside, and helped Keil put her Clam diorama together.  Came back into the house, sat down and helped her some more by collecting more information about the most boring of ocean life around, Clams. So that we can put together a poster for her.   Then I made dinner, which ain't was horrible, but it wasn't my fault that the ground chicken is just ground up breast this time, and it sucked, it was so dried out.  Thank goodness its not the only source of food in my kitchen.  Still managed to get the Clam stuff rewritten and done, printed out with the pictures I found, and now I am sitting here telling my husband that the poster can wait until tomorrow morning, when I am refreshed, because it happening tonight.

Leadership Notes

Priorities:

1) Stage Management: Able to ID what's going on in your stores. What the top A Sku's are, and what needs filling.

2.) Working Lead:
Working alongside, promoting balance.

3) Accountability: I have an responsibility to:
* BOH managers
* Leads
* FOH managers

4) Communications: with FOH partners, as well as each other.

5) Developing Lead
To develop not only myself, but the runners as well.

Why is it that sometimes we have this desire to go run and hide?

Really?

So first I have to deal with you being a pain during the Kings game, now I have to deal with this attitude before going to bed again tonight.   May you toss and turn the whole night long.  

Click-Boom!

Thankful that breakfast is over and I'm finally home

Easter Sunday

It didn't turn out so  bad, the only thing was I didn't spend it with all my family.     I had to leave James and Marina home because he wasn't feeling so fine.    But he seems better now, and will be going to school tomorrow.  

Spent the dinner time with Uncle Mike and Jesus at their new place.    He seemed different, probably because of all the extra work he is doing everyday now.   Work does seem to take a toll on your body and mind.  Poor guy....   Seems a bit preoccupied.   Don't we all when work starts driving us batty?   BTW Jesus was very quiet.

Glad that my Grandma is in a home.   Marc's gram has alzheimer's and for whatever reason it is,  it just seems like none of them take it seriously.   When a person who has this disease lets someone into their home, it would raise questions about that person's state of mind.    I would be scared to death to leave her by herself.  

Okay, other than that, I got to see The Kings Speech.   Very moving movie....

Oh!  The Blackhawks won!!!!   Yippee!

Have PMS...  Nuff said.

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You, Me and the Fencepost

Thoughts that are rattling around in my brain at the moment...

1). Does my ex-manager like his new job up in the finance department?

2.) why do gay men like Tinkerbell?

Enough Already

As much as I love you.   The game was over and they lost.   This shouldn't come as any surprise to you.  BUT you need to let it go!    As your dad said, "Its just a game."     Dropping the "F" bomb on every post you make to Facebook is getting to be ridunckulous.   Enough.  

Simple yet Elegant

Seems to be the story of my life.    

Im tired and I will blog tomorrow....