Mourning turned to Joy

Thankful that I have a husband who knows how to pick me up when I am feeling down.  



This morning I had a bit of a meltdown in the drive way of our home over the fact that I am feeling non appreciated at work by my managers who always seem to make sure that they lavish their attentions on the younger, lazier leads.   No matter what they do it's okay.  The moment I slip up its a no-go situation.  Of course, very seldom do I hear a word of anything from them about it.  However, I always do my job no matter what kind of a mood I am in, the job gets done.   Because there is never any time to just mess around and never do my job.  But for the young ones I am always observing that they can do no wrong.   More often than not, when they know that I am coming on to close they do nothing as a lead, and as their daytime runners underneath them are usually their buddies at work and away they follow the examples of their leads and their stores don't get filled.   But for some odd reason they are never held accountable.   All this to say that I just got fed up and yesterday was the day.  During our briefing yesterday afternoon before our shifts, we talked about the value of "getting to know our runners."   And while that if fine and dandy, there should still be a certain accountability of our runners.   The managers  think that we need to spend time helping our runners, in that maybe we should come alongside of them to help fill their locations. This mind you I already do unless of course I cannot get to them because I am responsible for taking care of locations.   So I just briefly brought up the subject of expectation of the runners  and I was shot down like a fighter plane in action.    I can't believe the arrogance of my managers and some of my fellow leads.     Anyway, it all ticked me off to no end and I just felt so discouraged the whole entire night.   Which I know better than to feel that way, but couldn't the both of my managers just for once sugar coat something and not be so blatantly rude.  

At any rate it upset me to tears.    And I have really never wanted to so badly tell my managers to stick it where the sun doesn't shine.   And to step down from being a lead.   But  I didn't.   Because I know my work ethic, and I know that the lead that I am.   Im committed, dedicated and do an awesome job every darn night of the week.   I never let my managers down, nor the FOH team and I always make sure that what I am doing is for the Lord and Him only.   But words, attitudes and actions can inflict pain when it's from people you are to honor and obey.  

If it wasn't for Marc's encouragement from what the Lord showed him I would surely have still been in this slump all day today also on my day off away from work.




I am really thankful for a husband who always seems to have the right words of encouragement.   I think that's the biggest blessing of it all.