With my son James.
He did really well the first semester of Jr.high and has since gone downhill the second semester as he is purposely not doing his assignments and turning them in. Marc and I are at our wits end with trying to talk with him, taking his privileges away etc. Nothing seems to be helping. And we are at a loss to know how to deal with it all.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Monday, December 3, 2012
Mourning turned to Joy
Thankful that I have a husband who knows how to pick me up when I am feeling down.
This morning I had a bit of a meltdown in the drive way of our home over the fact that I am feeling non appreciated at work by my managers who always seem to make sure that they lavish their attentions on the younger, lazier leads. No matter what they do it's okay. The moment I slip up its a no-go situation. Of course, very seldom do I hear a word of anything from them about it. However, I always do my job no matter what kind of a mood I am in, the job gets done. Because there is never any time to just mess around and never do my job. But for the young ones I am always observing that they can do no wrong. More often than not, when they know that I am coming on to close they do nothing as a lead, and as their daytime runners underneath them are usually their buddies at work and away they follow the examples of their leads and their stores don't get filled. But for some odd reason they are never held accountable. All this to say that I just got fed up and yesterday was the day. During our briefing yesterday afternoon before our shifts, we talked about the value of "getting to know our runners." And while that if fine and dandy, there should still be a certain accountability of our runners. The managers think that we need to spend time helping our runners, in that maybe we should come alongside of them to help fill their locations. This mind you I already do unless of course I cannot get to them because I am responsible for taking care of locations. So I just briefly brought up the subject of expectation of the runners and I was shot down like a fighter plane in action. I can't believe the arrogance of my managers and some of my fellow leads. Anyway, it all ticked me off to no end and I just felt so discouraged the whole entire night. Which I know better than to feel that way, but couldn't the both of my managers just for once sugar coat something and not be so blatantly rude.
At any rate it upset me to tears. And I have really never wanted to so badly tell my managers to stick it where the sun doesn't shine. And to step down from being a lead. But I didn't. Because I know my work ethic, and I know that the lead that I am. Im committed, dedicated and do an awesome job every darn night of the week. I never let my managers down, nor the FOH team and I always make sure that what I am doing is for the Lord and Him only. But words, attitudes and actions can inflict pain when it's from people you are to honor and obey.
If it wasn't for Marc's encouragement from what the Lord showed him I would surely have still been in this slump all day today also on my day off away from work.
I am really thankful for a husband who always seems to have the right words of encouragement. I think that's the biggest blessing of it all.
This morning I had a bit of a meltdown in the drive way of our home over the fact that I am feeling non appreciated at work by my managers who always seem to make sure that they lavish their attentions on the younger, lazier leads. No matter what they do it's okay. The moment I slip up its a no-go situation. Of course, very seldom do I hear a word of anything from them about it. However, I always do my job no matter what kind of a mood I am in, the job gets done. Because there is never any time to just mess around and never do my job. But for the young ones I am always observing that they can do no wrong. More often than not, when they know that I am coming on to close they do nothing as a lead, and as their daytime runners underneath them are usually their buddies at work and away they follow the examples of their leads and their stores don't get filled. But for some odd reason they are never held accountable. All this to say that I just got fed up and yesterday was the day. During our briefing yesterday afternoon before our shifts, we talked about the value of "getting to know our runners." And while that if fine and dandy, there should still be a certain accountability of our runners. The managers think that we need to spend time helping our runners, in that maybe we should come alongside of them to help fill their locations. This mind you I already do unless of course I cannot get to them because I am responsible for taking care of locations. So I just briefly brought up the subject of expectation of the runners and I was shot down like a fighter plane in action. I can't believe the arrogance of my managers and some of my fellow leads. Anyway, it all ticked me off to no end and I just felt so discouraged the whole entire night. Which I know better than to feel that way, but couldn't the both of my managers just for once sugar coat something and not be so blatantly rude.
At any rate it upset me to tears. And I have really never wanted to so badly tell my managers to stick it where the sun doesn't shine. And to step down from being a lead. But I didn't. Because I know my work ethic, and I know that the lead that I am. Im committed, dedicated and do an awesome job every darn night of the week. I never let my managers down, nor the FOH team and I always make sure that what I am doing is for the Lord and Him only. But words, attitudes and actions can inflict pain when it's from people you are to honor and obey.
If it wasn't for Marc's encouragement from what the Lord showed him I would surely have still been in this slump all day today also on my day off away from work.
I am really thankful for a husband who always seems to have the right words of encouragement. I think that's the biggest blessing of it all.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
A need to vent and move on.
The elections, I mean
And I know none of us got what we wanted which is to see Mitt take over, but in the end God's will was done. Now it's up to us to make sure that he's prayed for every single day, as this nation is lifted up also. I still believe that God has a plan through all of this and lets face it, we're probably not going to like it. Already, we're experiencing some hardships in the financial department with more taxes being put on us. It seems it doesn't matter how much we work, because we never really see the fruits of our labor for very long. It seems 10 times harder to make it through a week to payday again when your coming up shorter by having more taxes imposed on our checks. And with the cost of everything going through the roof it just becomes incredibly stressful. Although I am sure that I am not the only one experiencing this.. It's just so disheartening to think we've come to this in this nation. What also gets me is the fact that the Democrats don't seem to see it, nor are affected by it. It's almost like he's profiling us and those who vote him into office are the ones getting the tax breaks. And at this point, that theory doesn't seem so ridiculous.
And it might have something to do with New World Order and it also might have something to do with the mark of the beast. When we read about those stories in the bible, we don't put two and two together. Because we tend to think that this couldn't be happening yet. And at the same time so much is changing. And we need to be aware of what's going on, and need to take action.
So we legalized marijuana in two states and we legalized gay marriage in another two. There's just too many liberation going on these days don't you think? We are truly a country that is far away from God. In fact so much so that I am sure that I can find at least 10 references to the fact that the Christian Right is no longer in control of the voting in this country. That's truthful and sad. And should make us snap to.
And the thing about it is is that O is convinced that he's fulfilling Christian scripture. He is as the Wolf in Sheeps clothing. Mostly every one that I know of is convinced (myself included) that he is evil and that he can't be trusted. While others think he is a saint.
So we have him and he's promised to make the second part of his term fascinating. I can't wait to see what he has up his sleeve for America.
And I know none of us got what we wanted which is to see Mitt take over, but in the end God's will was done. Now it's up to us to make sure that he's prayed for every single day, as this nation is lifted up also. I still believe that God has a plan through all of this and lets face it, we're probably not going to like it. Already, we're experiencing some hardships in the financial department with more taxes being put on us. It seems it doesn't matter how much we work, because we never really see the fruits of our labor for very long. It seems 10 times harder to make it through a week to payday again when your coming up shorter by having more taxes imposed on our checks. And with the cost of everything going through the roof it just becomes incredibly stressful. Although I am sure that I am not the only one experiencing this.. It's just so disheartening to think we've come to this in this nation. What also gets me is the fact that the Democrats don't seem to see it, nor are affected by it. It's almost like he's profiling us and those who vote him into office are the ones getting the tax breaks. And at this point, that theory doesn't seem so ridiculous.
And it might have something to do with New World Order and it also might have something to do with the mark of the beast. When we read about those stories in the bible, we don't put two and two together. Because we tend to think that this couldn't be happening yet. And at the same time so much is changing. And we need to be aware of what's going on, and need to take action.
So we legalized marijuana in two states and we legalized gay marriage in another two. There's just too many liberation going on these days don't you think? We are truly a country that is far away from God. In fact so much so that I am sure that I can find at least 10 references to the fact that the Christian Right is no longer in control of the voting in this country. That's truthful and sad. And should make us snap to.
And the thing about it is is that O is convinced that he's fulfilling Christian scripture. He is as the Wolf in Sheeps clothing. Mostly every one that I know of is convinced (myself included) that he is evil and that he can't be trusted. While others think he is a saint.
So we have him and he's promised to make the second part of his term fascinating. I can't wait to see what he has up his sleeve for America.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Updates...
Well a couple of weeks ago I was frustrated with work amongst other things.
I had my court date on Monday only to get all the way into LA to be told that the window of opportunity for child support had just closed on a case I purposely closed more than 2 years ago. The lady just looked at me and couldn't figure out why I didn't want to Jane anything to do with re-opening a new case.
Sometimes things are better left the way they have been instead of opening up a new can if worms. It's true the kids haven't seen their dad for almost 3 years. Do I care? Not really. He has never in the past 5 years supported these kids, hasn't called on their birthdays, Christmas etc for that same amount of time. He always seems to call once a year to let me know his new phone number, other than that I never hear from him.
So do I wish to find him for CS? No.
He's made his bed so to speak, and it's basically up to him to make contact with his kids, should he ever want to hold up his end if the bargain.
In the meantime I believe that The Lord gave both Marc and I our steady jobs at Disney that He will provide for all of us through.
I had my court date on Monday only to get all the way into LA to be told that the window of opportunity for child support had just closed on a case I purposely closed more than 2 years ago. The lady just looked at me and couldn't figure out why I didn't want to Jane anything to do with re-opening a new case.
Sometimes things are better left the way they have been instead of opening up a new can if worms. It's true the kids haven't seen their dad for almost 3 years. Do I care? Not really. He has never in the past 5 years supported these kids, hasn't called on their birthdays, Christmas etc for that same amount of time. He always seems to call once a year to let me know his new phone number, other than that I never hear from him.
So do I wish to find him for CS? No.
He's made his bed so to speak, and it's basically up to him to make contact with his kids, should he ever want to hold up his end if the bargain.
In the meantime I believe that The Lord gave both Marc and I our steady jobs at Disney that He will provide for all of us through.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
PMS and other things
I'm really in a crappy mood. I'm not happy at work. I'm getting less lead shifts and I font know exactly why, and I am scheduled next Monday on my day off mind you that now I have to call out of.
I'm really trying not to worry about the finances and such because I know that The Lord is in control of providing for us, but it just bothers me that I am now going to end up short on my check because my manager decides to work me. I can't go in because its the only day in the week that the kids get out early and there is no one else to pick them up. I do not want to have to delve into my vacation because I am going to have to use it on the 28-29 as I have to go to court on the 29th, but I have to take Sunday the 28th off because I won't be able to work on Sunday til 02:00 and Marc til 03:00 or later and then be in downtown LA at 08:00 for court.
I'm just so irritated with it all.
I'm really trying not to worry about the finances and such because I know that The Lord is in control of providing for us, but it just bothers me that I am now going to end up short on my check because my manager decides to work me. I can't go in because its the only day in the week that the kids get out early and there is no one else to pick them up. I do not want to have to delve into my vacation because I am going to have to use it on the 28-29 as I have to go to court on the 29th, but I have to take Sunday the 28th off because I won't be able to work on Sunday til 02:00 and Marc til 03:00 or later and then be in downtown LA at 08:00 for court.
I'm just so irritated with it all.
Monday, October 1, 2012
A Necessary Evil
Today I received papers in the mail to appear in court on the 29th of this new month. It seems that the state is pursuing child support from my ex for me. This comes as a surprise for me as I finally gave up on my ex ever paying me anything for the kids. So for the past three years since my divorce I have been along with Marc's help supporting the kids on our income. And that's getting tougher with every passing day in this state. So maybe this is a good thing. But I still hate going to court and I have to be there at 8 am sharp in L.A. Which means I need to take Sunday off from work, because I wouldn't be able to drive there on 2 hours of sleep. But thankfully, Marc will be going with me, so that's good. But yeah... That's what's to come.
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