Am I allowed to be bummed as a Christian? I think so. It might not be what and how God would want us to react to let downs as he is in control of all things that pertain to our lives. He doesn't want us to worry or stress but sometimes we can't help it, right? I mean we are human after all.
So we of course have been saving a little bit of what is left over from our taxes- but today we found out that the trucks ABS system is going out. Case in point- I was taking the kids to school, went over a bump in the road and couldn't stop the car. Thankfully we didn't rear end the person in front of us. So I drove it to the shop and voila it is what it is. And as for that savings? That is partially gone and the remaining is going on my credit card which I am truly not happy about but am stuck with no other option.
I just feel that we can never get ahead. An I know that this is not the attitude that God wants me to have. But it is what it is. Maybe tomorrow morning I'll be feeling better. But as for tonight I'm not.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Heart Condition
So since Saturday when I checked my schedule for next week I have been filled with anger, frustration and every evil thought, well. Maybe not EVERY thought, but I have been harboring the worst attitude that ice had in quite some time at work. normally I would blog about it to get it off my chest and leave it in Gods hands, but cub is not the case with this issue. This issue has been going on now since September and I thought that I had taken care oft with Kelly back in November when she started scheduling me according to my preferences and not hers. Since being a full time cast member with seniority, I have certain rights,one of them is to have first dibs on the hours for labor, and not last choice. According to union contract she to honor that whether or not she likes toor not. So for the month of December I had runner shifts, and that was the only month I had them consistently. For the past two months I have had cashier positions to make up my 30 hours after my lead shifts. So yesterday I finally got enough courage up to call our union rep to talk with him about this. I was thankful that he called me back with advice ASAP.
But instead of leaving this in Gods hands I still find myself irked. I have never had any issues with my schedule for the past 7 years I have been a cast member. But I believe there is more going on with all this. I believe she might be taking bribes from other cast members so that they can be scheduled into my shifts. And if that's what's going on both the CM's could be fired, and I also think she's purposely singling me out because I have questioned her in the past about me schedule.
What I need to do is wholeheartedly give this to God so that I am not carrying around all this strife, anger and pent up rage at home and at work.
I need to have peace and comfort and know that I have done what needs to be done. I need to follow through with the advice my Rep gave me and leave the rest in Gods hands. So that is my prayer for today.
But instead of leaving this in Gods hands I still find myself irked. I have never had any issues with my schedule for the past 7 years I have been a cast member. But I believe there is more going on with all this. I believe she might be taking bribes from other cast members so that they can be scheduled into my shifts. And if that's what's going on both the CM's could be fired, and I also think she's purposely singling me out because I have questioned her in the past about me schedule.
What I need to do is wholeheartedly give this to God so that I am not carrying around all this strife, anger and pent up rage at home and at work.
I need to have peace and comfort and know that I have done what needs to be done. I need to follow through with the advice my Rep gave me and leave the rest in Gods hands. So that is my prayer for today.
Monday, February 4, 2013
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Ho Hum
Just hanging out while the rest of the family are watching the first Kings game of the season. Or more like yelling at the TV screen for allowing the Blackhawks to score 3 times in the first period. Meanwhile I am trying to reason my argument as to the fact that there hasn't been any real play since we've been locked out for so long. So while my opinion is being tossed in the trash as unreasonable I am just sitting here chilling and craving greasy tacos from Taco Bell.
It's Saturday and I have to work at 17:30 this afternoon, I am sure that I am going to hear about the end result of this game.
On another note if I had knitting needles I would be trying to teach myself, which would be a great afternoon activity. A friend of mine sent home a skein of yarn for me.
Last night I was thinking how about a month ago everyone was going nuts trying to tie up loose ends of their Christmas shopping. The park just got extremely busy about this time. Now the park is slower with nuttier guests hanging around it. Literally. But with it being Martin Luther weekend, the NAMM convention going on and the Tinkerbell Half Marathon happening tomorrow I am willing to be we pick up in business this weekend without the coverage we'll need because its off-peak season. So I guess we'll see what the outcome will be.
It's Saturday and I have to work at 17:30 this afternoon, I am sure that I am going to hear about the end result of this game.
On another note if I had knitting needles I would be trying to teach myself, which would be a great afternoon activity. A friend of mine sent home a skein of yarn for me.
Last night I was thinking how about a month ago everyone was going nuts trying to tie up loose ends of their Christmas shopping. The park just got extremely busy about this time. Now the park is slower with nuttier guests hanging around it. Literally. But with it being Martin Luther weekend, the NAMM convention going on and the Tinkerbell Half Marathon happening tomorrow I am willing to be we pick up in business this weekend without the coverage we'll need because its off-peak season. So I guess we'll see what the outcome will be.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Can't say I'm fine Tonight
I know it's been a while but it's been one of those nights when I just want to scream.
I got into it with a fellow lead over the fact that she let her store go to crap because she thinks she can. You know at Disneyland we're just the little guys, the peons you might say. And there's times when we have to do more than our share of the work because a runner didn't do theirs, but a lead who makes it clear that she won't run in areas, she won't close carts, she won't process merchandise to the floor should not even be put into this position to begin with. There are many a nights when I stay later making sure the stores are ready for business in the morning, even if that means I have to do OT because of it. Because that's what's expected of me. But when you have a fellow lead who gripes about every little darn thing and then gets mad when help is coming there is a problem.
Also at the end of the evening I usually have a list of some sort that a manager might give to me of items that need to get looked into. I had this list and she got irked because I wouldn't let her know what was on it. And she pretty much accused me of letting my helper runner know what was on this list, which I didn't. No one knows what was on it besides me and God. When Gloria my helper came down I had her work on the lollipop tree which she was happy to do. Also my pain-in-the-arse runner told me she was leaving because I asked someone to come down and help. Seriously?!!! Sometimes I really have to wonder about people. Anyway she did leave for about 20 minutes then came back. Tossed her radio on the table and was pretty irksome the rest of the night.
And this is someone older than me who was bragging about being more mature just a mere 7 hours before? Hmmm.
Of course I did fall into the trap of venting when I had no idea that she had walked back into the store. I'm sure I will be held
accountable for that.
I got into it with a fellow lead over the fact that she let her store go to crap because she thinks she can. You know at Disneyland we're just the little guys, the peons you might say. And there's times when we have to do more than our share of the work because a runner didn't do theirs, but a lead who makes it clear that she won't run in areas, she won't close carts, she won't process merchandise to the floor should not even be put into this position to begin with. There are many a nights when I stay later making sure the stores are ready for business in the morning, even if that means I have to do OT because of it. Because that's what's expected of me. But when you have a fellow lead who gripes about every little darn thing and then gets mad when help is coming there is a problem.
Also at the end of the evening I usually have a list of some sort that a manager might give to me of items that need to get looked into. I had this list and she got irked because I wouldn't let her know what was on it. And she pretty much accused me of letting my helper runner know what was on this list, which I didn't. No one knows what was on it besides me and God. When Gloria my helper came down I had her work on the lollipop tree which she was happy to do. Also my pain-in-the-arse runner told me she was leaving because I asked someone to come down and help. Seriously?!!! Sometimes I really have to wonder about people. Anyway she did leave for about 20 minutes then came back. Tossed her radio on the table and was pretty irksome the rest of the night.
And this is someone older than me who was bragging about being more mature just a mere 7 hours before? Hmmm.
Of course I did fall into the trap of venting when I had no idea that she had walked back into the store. I'm sure I will be held
accountable for that.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Frustrated
With my son James.
He did really well the first semester of Jr.high and has since gone downhill the second semester as he is purposely not doing his assignments and turning them in. Marc and I are at our wits end with trying to talk with him, taking his privileges away etc. Nothing seems to be helping. And we are at a loss to know how to deal with it all.
He did really well the first semester of Jr.high and has since gone downhill the second semester as he is purposely not doing his assignments and turning them in. Marc and I are at our wits end with trying to talk with him, taking his privileges away etc. Nothing seems to be helping. And we are at a loss to know how to deal with it all.
Monday, December 3, 2012
Mourning turned to Joy
Thankful that I have a husband who knows how to pick me up when I am feeling down.
This morning I had a bit of a meltdown in the drive way of our home over the fact that I am feeling non appreciated at work by my managers who always seem to make sure that they lavish their attentions on the younger, lazier leads. No matter what they do it's okay. The moment I slip up its a no-go situation. Of course, very seldom do I hear a word of anything from them about it. However, I always do my job no matter what kind of a mood I am in, the job gets done. Because there is never any time to just mess around and never do my job. But for the young ones I am always observing that they can do no wrong. More often than not, when they know that I am coming on to close they do nothing as a lead, and as their daytime runners underneath them are usually their buddies at work and away they follow the examples of their leads and their stores don't get filled. But for some odd reason they are never held accountable. All this to say that I just got fed up and yesterday was the day. During our briefing yesterday afternoon before our shifts, we talked about the value of "getting to know our runners." And while that if fine and dandy, there should still be a certain accountability of our runners. The managers think that we need to spend time helping our runners, in that maybe we should come alongside of them to help fill their locations. This mind you I already do unless of course I cannot get to them because I am responsible for taking care of locations. So I just briefly brought up the subject of expectation of the runners and I was shot down like a fighter plane in action. I can't believe the arrogance of my managers and some of my fellow leads. Anyway, it all ticked me off to no end and I just felt so discouraged the whole entire night. Which I know better than to feel that way, but couldn't the both of my managers just for once sugar coat something and not be so blatantly rude.
At any rate it upset me to tears. And I have really never wanted to so badly tell my managers to stick it where the sun doesn't shine. And to step down from being a lead. But I didn't. Because I know my work ethic, and I know that the lead that I am. Im committed, dedicated and do an awesome job every darn night of the week. I never let my managers down, nor the FOH team and I always make sure that what I am doing is for the Lord and Him only. But words, attitudes and actions can inflict pain when it's from people you are to honor and obey.
If it wasn't for Marc's encouragement from what the Lord showed him I would surely have still been in this slump all day today also on my day off away from work.
I am really thankful for a husband who always seems to have the right words of encouragement. I think that's the biggest blessing of it all.
This morning I had a bit of a meltdown in the drive way of our home over the fact that I am feeling non appreciated at work by my managers who always seem to make sure that they lavish their attentions on the younger, lazier leads. No matter what they do it's okay. The moment I slip up its a no-go situation. Of course, very seldom do I hear a word of anything from them about it. However, I always do my job no matter what kind of a mood I am in, the job gets done. Because there is never any time to just mess around and never do my job. But for the young ones I am always observing that they can do no wrong. More often than not, when they know that I am coming on to close they do nothing as a lead, and as their daytime runners underneath them are usually their buddies at work and away they follow the examples of their leads and their stores don't get filled. But for some odd reason they are never held accountable. All this to say that I just got fed up and yesterday was the day. During our briefing yesterday afternoon before our shifts, we talked about the value of "getting to know our runners." And while that if fine and dandy, there should still be a certain accountability of our runners. The managers think that we need to spend time helping our runners, in that maybe we should come alongside of them to help fill their locations. This mind you I already do unless of course I cannot get to them because I am responsible for taking care of locations. So I just briefly brought up the subject of expectation of the runners and I was shot down like a fighter plane in action. I can't believe the arrogance of my managers and some of my fellow leads. Anyway, it all ticked me off to no end and I just felt so discouraged the whole entire night. Which I know better than to feel that way, but couldn't the both of my managers just for once sugar coat something and not be so blatantly rude.
At any rate it upset me to tears. And I have really never wanted to so badly tell my managers to stick it where the sun doesn't shine. And to step down from being a lead. But I didn't. Because I know my work ethic, and I know that the lead that I am. Im committed, dedicated and do an awesome job every darn night of the week. I never let my managers down, nor the FOH team and I always make sure that what I am doing is for the Lord and Him only. But words, attitudes and actions can inflict pain when it's from people you are to honor and obey.
If it wasn't for Marc's encouragement from what the Lord showed him I would surely have still been in this slump all day today also on my day off away from work.
I am really thankful for a husband who always seems to have the right words of encouragement. I think that's the biggest blessing of it all.
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